Lately I have done something that most people have done, or will do, sometime in their lifetime – I looked back over my life and felt that I have nothing to show for the years I have lived.
I saw myself as a failure and that made me very depressed. I had trouble sleeping at night and struggled with writing and performing my other tasks for my businesses.
I knew that the combination of sleepiness night and not getting work done was not going to help me further my businesses growth or help anyone who I strive to help each day. I knew I needed to do something about it and for the longest time I did not know what – until the other morning when I woke up and had a “ah-ha” moment.
That morning, I laid in my bed like many others, but instead of feeling depressed and wanting to sleep the day away, I decided to prove to myself that I am not a complete failure by listing all the successes I have created and/or achieved in my lifetime.
I of course skipped to obvious ones, but you could add them to your list if you desired: learning how to talk, walk, dress myself and fee myself as a toddler – but I did add the last three to my list for when I had to relearn those skills after my ischemic stroke to my spinal cord.
I counted learning how to ride a bike, the time I got expelled from high school and earned my way back into my school and earned honor roll grades for one quarter of my junior year.
Since only about 67% of disabled students graduate form high school, I counted my graduation as an accomplishment in my life.
When you consider the high unemployment rate for the disabled, I counted my ability to work several jobs at the college I attended, I counted my job as a cart attendant at Target, the board operator job at KCIV in Modesto California and the job I got as a customer service representative at a local internet service provider when they were not hiring anyone.
From the job at the ISP, I earned the Stanislaus County co-(disabled) employee of the year award.
I certainly did not overlook the fact that I returned home instead of living in a long-term care facility the rest of my life after my ischemic stroke to my spinal cord.
Knowing that disabled people ae 50% less likely to get married, I had to count the fact that not only did I get married but I have been married for 17 years and counting.
I added to the list my 2 business I ran in the late 1990’s and early 2000’s. I also added my eBay business that had some success despite my limitations from my ischemic stroke.
I also counted the Missouri Association of Hospital Auxiliary award and my Joplin Business Journal Salute to Health Care Volunteer award for my work at Freeman Hospital’s intensive care unit in Joplin.
Although I just mentioned some of the accomplishments I thought of that morning, I came up with more than 40 before I jumped out of bed and raced into my office. As I watched my computer start up, I weas full of confidence that I was not a failure and convinced my next success was around the corner.