My word for the year is courageous

A few days ago, we started not just a new year, we started a new decade. 

Many people made resolutions.  I have done that in the past and often they go unfulfilled before the month is over, leaving me feeling like a failure which in turn damages my self-esteem.

This year I am trying something different.  Instead of a new year’s resolution, I am trying something different.  I call it my word of the year.

I got the idea from An idea from the #yourwordoftheyear project created by Christine Kane. 

The idea behind your word of the year, in a nutshell, is that you choose a word that will guide you through the year. However, I put my own spin on it.  My word of the year not only is designed to guide me through 2020, it is also to help challenge me to step outside of my comfort zone.

My word of the year is courage.

I choose the word courage because being courageous is an area that I often come up short in.  I have a lot of great things I want to do both personally and professionally. What holds me back by a lack of courage to attempt these great ideas or even share the idea with others.

To succeed in being more courageous, I must understand why I am not courageous now.

I am not a risk taker.  I have never been a risk taker.  I do take calculated risks. I think that is because I have always been cautions with my disability to be safe in what I do.  I have learned that when I am not careful, like the last fall with the trash can on the driveway, bad things can happen.

Add on top of that my fear of being laughed, mocked or being told my idea is dumb (it has happened before) and of course the fear of failure itself.

How am I going to be courageous this year?

The first thing I am going to do is to keep the word “courageous” in front of me as much as possible.  When I create my vision board for 2020, I will place the word courageous on it.  I will have the word courageous displayed on my office TV and other places that I often see throughout the day. 

I will even find ways to work into my vocabulary and use it at least once a day all year.

However, I know that there is more to succeeding in being more courageous than just seeing the word everywhere and working it into my vocabulary.

I am expecting from myself that I do one thing outside of my comfort zone each week.  By the end of the year I am hoping to be doing one thing outside of my comfort zone each day.

By being brave enough to step outside of my comfort zone, it will make me more courageous in life, which I hope will make me more successful in life.